`The satanic sex ring takes place around a quarry, near your friend's house. As well as your family there are four others, so far that we know of, involved.' When her dad was arrested and imprisoned for violently abusing his 15 children, Esther thought her life could begin at last. She couldn't have been more wrong. Another man was ready to take advantage of this vulnerable girl. Social services stepped in again, but this time they made things much, much worse . . . If Only I Had Told is Esther's personal and very brave memoir that tells the truth about Orkney's 1991 satanic sex scandal. It is a shocking account of how two evil men and a flawed system let down not just a young girl but a whole community.